内容简介
From the guitarist of the pioneering band Sleater-Kinney, the book Kim Gordon says "everyone has been waiting for" and a New York Times Notable Book of 2015-- a candid, funny, and deeply personal look at making a life--and finding yourself--in music.
Before Carrie Brownstein became a music icon, she was a young girl growing up in the Pacific Northwest just as it was becoming the setting for one the most important movements in rock history. Seeking a sense of home and identity, she would discover both while moving from spectator to creator in experiencing the power and mystery of a live performance. With Sleater-Kinney, Brownstein and her bandmates rose to prominence in the burgeoning underground feminist punk-rock movement that would define music and pop culture in the 1990s. They would be cited as “America’s best rock band” by legendary music critic Greil Marcus for their defiant, exuberant brand of punk that resisted labels and limitations, and redefined notions of gender in rock.
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HUNGER MAKES ME A MODERN GIRL is an intimate and revealing narrative of her escape from a turbulent family life into a world where music was the means toward self-invention, community, and rescue. Along the way, Brownstein chronicles the excitement and contradictions within the era’s flourishing and fiercely independent music subculture, including experiences that sowed the seeds for the observational satire of the popular television series Portlandia years later.
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With deft, lucid prose Brownstein proves herself as formidable on the page as on the stage. Accessibly raw, honest and heartfelt, this book captures the experience of being a young woman, a born performer and an outsider, and ultimately finding one’s true calling through hard work, courage and the intoxicating power of rock and roll.
作者简介
Carrie Brownstein is a musician, writer and actor who first became widely known as the guitarist and vocalist of the band Sleater-Kinney and later as a creator, writer and co-star of the Emmy-nominated, Peabody Award winning television show Portlandia.?Brownstein's writing has appeared in The New York Times, The Believer, Slate,?and numerous anthologies on music and culture. She lives in Portland, Oregon and Los Angeles.??
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精彩书评
"In the vast library of recent rock memoirs... Ms. Brownstein’s may be the one that most nakedly exposes its author’s personality."—
The New York Times“Carrie Brownstein writes the way she plays guitar, with raw honesty, passion, and great humor in
Hunger Makes Me a Modern Girl.”—
Vanity Fair
"A memoir that's both candid and brave, and a powerful tribute to the power of music to heal, to connect, to break you down and then make you whole again……Brownstein's music has always helped people feel like they really do belong somewhere, and her wonderful memoir does the same thing.”
- NPR “Meet your fierce and funny new comrade-in-arms. [Brownstein] takes us on a backstage tour of her life, from quirky kid-dom to angsty teen-dom to the feminist subculture of the riot grrl scene to not quite superstardom… Chronicling Sleater-Kinney’s tumultuous history and her own volatility – the tours that electrified fans, one brutal, ballsy concert at a time; the anxiety that often plagued her—Brownstein illuminates the euphoric highs and crushing lows of a life spent both on the fringes and in the spotlight.”—
O, The Oprah Magazine
“[
Hunger Makes Me a Modern Girl] is earnest, endearing, at times angry, critical, confessional, raw… [it's]?the compelling chronicle of a born performer, from fandom to stardom… The richness of the writing ensures that
Hunger will satisfy die-hard Sleater-Kinney fans as well as those who’ve never heard a note.”?—
Kirkus Reviews?
“Brownstein is as nimble, articulate, and honest a writer of literary nonfiction as she is a musician, actress, and cultural critic.”
—Vogue.com
?“A sharp, emotionally intimate new memoir.”
—People
“[Brownstein’s] honesty is disarming, and buoyed by the same dry wit that makes her scenester-lacerating IFC series?
Portlandia?so good. That’s how she artfully manages to transcend the backstage tropes of the rock-bio genre, and why
Hunger?should become the new handbook for every modern girl (and yes, boys, too) looking for the courage to pursue a life less ordinary.”
?–Entertainment Weekly
“A stand out memoir
… A journey to self-possession and a portrait of an era.” –
Vogue
“She can play, but man, can Carrie Brownstein write…Her blazing memoir is lit by the same flair for adventure, fearless inquiry, and honesty that mark her gritty licks and trenchant vocals.”
—ELLE
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Hunger doesn’t try to enumerate every hat she’s ever worn, only what emboldened her to keep experimenting.”—
TIME Magazine
“Solid musings from the Portlandia star/feminist punk hero.”
—Cosmopolitan
“Brownstein in an American indy culture avatar — funny, smart and always on point.” —
Los Angeles Times “Brownstein’s writing is strongest when she describes the passion and sheer joy she experiences connecting with music.” —
BUST Magazine
“(Brownstein) peels away any residual glamor and mythology of the Riot Grrrl movement and tells her tale of suburban upbringing and liberation.”—
Newsweek
“
Modern Girl?offers a stark look at the strain that touring life took on Brownstein; she talks openly about her battles with depression and anxiety, including a difficult-to-read?account of her nervous breakdown,?which ultimately ended the band.”—
Paper Magazine
“Life on tour isn’t all rock ’n’ roll fantasy, as Sleater-Kinney icon and Portlandia cocreator Carrie Brownstein attests in her corrosively honest, impossible-to-put-down memoir,
Hunger Makes Me a Modern Girl—both a journey to self-possession and a portrait of an era, as indelible as one of her songs.”—
Vogue.com
“In her new memoir, [Brownstein] tells the story of how she found salvation in music.” —
Out Magazine
?“To find her calling, Carrie is going to experience hard work, sacrifice, and independence that makes her thrive.” —
Buzzfeed
?“Revealing and raw.” —
The Daily Beast “Few reign power and femininity like Brownstein whose haunting vocals and soul punching lyrics leave listeners rattled, in a good way, the way only truly great music can — something Hunger Makes Me a Modern Girl is bound to do as well.”
—Bustle
“[Brownstein] is an incredible observer, with a gift for phrases and imagery and making sense of memory… it’s not hard to predict that Brownstein’s book will go beyond the usual rock-star victory-lap and turn out to be one of the wisest and most poignant memoirs in quite a while.”—
Salon
?“[A] moving story about Brownstein’s life before, during, and after the rise of America’s greatest rock band.”
—Flavorwire
“Brownstein writes with an impressive level of self-awareness and wry humor, even when she’s tackling difficult moments in her life." —
Refinery29 “The Sleater-Kinney guitarist, writer, and Portlandia and Transparent actress has always been curiously eloquent. That quality has become obvious over the course of eight albums with bandmates Corin Tucker and Janet Weiss... and now in her refreshingly forthright new memoir,
Hunger Makes Me a Modern Girl.”—
SPIN “Brownstein’s
Modern Girl offers a lot of value for a wide range of readers. Music historians get a first-hand POV of one of punk rock’s most interesting scenes, aspiring artists will take away Brownstein’s mandatory perspective and casual readers get a damn fine read.”—
Paste Magazine
?“Sleater-Kinney guitarist Carrie Browstein debunks the nostalgic clichés of rock-star life on the road. Instead, she candidly recounts the panic attacks and stress-induced shingles she experienced on tour.” —
The Cut
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Hunger is a testament to the fact that the transient and permanent are, in fact, intertwined.”—
The Jewish Daily Forward
“Sleater-Kinney’s Carrie Brownstein will make you laugh and cry in
Hunger Makes Me a Modern Girl…A hunger to be noticed, a hunger to perform and a hunger to be loved are clear motivators for Brownstein as she looks back on her childhood at the start of her entirely self-written and often funny book.”?
–NY Daily News
“Engrossing… For fans of Sleater-Kinney, it’s immensely compelling, particularly because Brownstein writes crisply, insightfully, and without vanity… Brownstein’s memoir shows that she can keep a secret. More important, it shows how compelling she is when she opens up.”—
The A.V. Club
“[Brownstein's] writing is sharp, erudite, and witty, and it makes
Hunger my favorite music memoir since
Just Kids… [it]?arrives at a moment of unprecented reverence for the feminist rock memoir." —
Pitchfork
“Carrie Brownstein is the legendary guitarist in Sleater-Kinney, one-half of the comedic genius team responsible for “Portlandia” and, now, in a move that surprises no one, a brilliant memoirist.”
–Spectrum “Sleater-Kinney guitarist and “Portlandia” co-creator Carrie Brownstein’s reflections on performance and community will move and shake you.” —
Huffington Post “Brownstein’s a great writer and
Hunger is a smooth, electric read. She carries a lot of humor and gentle self-deprecation throughout the work.”—
Consequence of Sound
“Honest and irreverent, Brownstein shows herself to be a talented rock journalist and memoirist without losing the intelligence and humor her fans have come to expect.”—
Nordstrom Blog The Thread
“Sometimes it's nice to love a band just for their songs, without concern for their backstory, but when you get a chance to know where one of your all-time favorites comes from, and written in such a way where it feels like you've dived into a pool and like a cartoon, the whole world changes around you, it would be a crime not to indulge. Spend some time with Carrie, it'll be totally worth your while."—
Lenny Letter
“Carrie strikes a great balance of fond reminiscing and truthful (sometimes regretful) memories spent on the road, in the recording studio and moments of humility in her youth.”—
AfterEllen
“[Brownstein’s] memoir, looking back on those formative years with the band, offers the kind of intimacy and insight fans and enthusiasts will eagerly devour.”—
Biographile
“This portrait of a life lived above the realm of daily concern may be accurate if you’re a Rolling Stone or Beyonce, but the truth, for most moderately successful musicians, is that rock ‘n’ roll is mostly about hard work, uncomfortable sleeping arrangements, and a lot of carrying your own instruments. Which is why Carrie Brownstein’s new memoir, about her years with the band Sleater-Kinney, is so welcome.”—
Biographile
?“What would it be like if all your dreams come true? For Carrie Brownstein, who grew up in the Riot Grrrl movement in the Pacific Northwest, they did: She started out playing in countless punk bands until settling on one with her BFF and romantic partner, Corin Tucker, which they eventually turned into the best rock band of all time, Sleater-Kinney. In
Hunger Makes Me a Modern Girl, Brownstein recounts her time before worldwide fame, what Riot Grrrl meant to her as a young woman searching for her voice, and how rock 'n' roll saved her life.”—
Cosmopolitan.com
“In this dynamic memoir, Sleater-Kinney's Carrie Browstein tells her story of coming up through the 1990s feminist punk scene of the Pacific Northwest. Her portrait is vivid, transporting readers back to the intimate moments that sowed her own roots, and made her the cool-girl icon she is today. Brownstein is honest, funny, and, well, everything you want her to be.” —
Bustle
“Carrie Brownstein is brilliant and hilarious in Portlandia, and iconic as the singer for punk-rock band Sleater-Kinney, but her memoir
Hunger Makes Me A Modern Girl reveals a more raw and vulnerable side to her.” —
Bustle
“From her rocky childhood to becoming part of the feminist punk-rock movement to her days as a comedic writer and actor, Brownstein brings us into the most intimate moments of her life.”—
First Slice “For decades, the guitarist for the legendary Sleater-Kinney has been celebrated for her unapologetic queer politics and general bad-assery. When she became the co-creator and star of the IFC comedy series "Portlandia," we were introduced to her slippery wit as well. Her new memoir unveils a third Brownstein: a melancholy, intellectually rigorous introvert who's been musically unpacking the concept of family ever since her suburban Washington childhood fell apart.”
—WordandFilm.com
“Brownstein has written an absolute love letter to music, a gift to Sleater Kinney fans, and above all, an expertly crafted memoir.”—
Lambda Literary
“Brownstein has insightful things to say about growing up with a closeted gay dad and an anorexic mom, about how the creative process works, about the 'performance' of the audience at a concert, about the punk aesthetic.”
—Newsday
?“A performer through and through, she translates her story to the page with characteristically blunt humor and observational prowess.” —
Village Voice
“Brownstein is both an icon of pop culture and an astute observer of it.”
—The Boston Globe
“Carrie Brownstein’s local history as part of Sleater-Kinney is, for many of us, our own—and she has long been an articulate and funny and intelligent voice behind piercing guitar that left tatters behind.”
—Willamette Week
“Brownstein has a story to tell, and it doesn't include satirical sketches about a certain element of local culture… What Brownstein does instead is open a window into her turbulent, creative Northwest life.”—
The Oregonian
“For Sleater-Kinney fans, [
Hunger Makes Me a Modern Girl] is an absolute must… The author writes focused and uncluttered prose, choosing the best, most telling details, as she recounts stories that show what it means to perform for the first time and what it means for a woman to be both a fan and a star in a staunchly male-dominated world. …It's revealing and riveting. On the page as in her songs, Brownstein finds the right words to give shape to experience.”—
Kirkus starred review
“A candid look at life in rock and roll in a deeply personal and revealing narrative of her life in music, as ardent fan, pioneering female guitarist, comedic performer on TV’s Portlandia, and luminary in the independent rock world.”
—Publishers Weekly
“[Brownstein's] memoir delivers on all counts, offering a sharp-eyed tale of a singular time in music and culture… A strong, engaging pop culture memoir: personal detail, a little dish, and a well-written look at what made the music, and the culture that spawned it, matter.”
–Library Journal starred review
“Brownstein flips easily from brainy ruminations on nostalgia, fandom, and record labels to trenchant stories about sexism, music journalism, and how a soy allergy—not drugs or alcohol—brought her to her knees on tour… her vivid Sleater-Kinney stories and descriptions of their albums are downright irresistible. Sleater-Kinney fans went nuts late last year when the trio broke their years-long hiatus, and Brownstein’s memoir will give them more to salivate over.”—
Booklist
“[Brownstein] looks back with a healthy balance of romanticism, critique, and humor... she has talent... Her writing is super solid, at times even gripping... You don’t need to be a superfan to appreciate someone’s well-told story about the inherent joy and strife that comes with being in a band; a person’s story about finding, then losing, then re-finding her destiny.”
—Electric Literature
“Brownstein has a gift for describing how collaboration works. She's got a clear critical grasp of how the push and pull between her and vocalist-guitarist Corin Tucker and the essential talents of drummer Janet Weiss made the powerful, abrasive, addictive music of Sleater-Kinney. And to that she adds an important personal perspective.”
—Los Angeles Times
"Deftly woven narrative….A brisk and fascinating work.”?
—Flavorwire?
"A document of self-actualization… [Brownstein’s] writing is measured, dispassionate, and well considered; it’s engaging for exactly those reasons. Her insight is some of the best on that era and subset of punk that’s been written."
?—Jezebel?
“Deeply felt and smartly unpacked…Essential reading…One of the best rock memoirs anyone is going to read in quite some time.”
—Austin American Statesman?
“Her honesty is disarming, and buoyed by the same dry wit that makes her scenester-lacerating IFC series?
Portlandia?so good. That’s how she artfully manages to transcend the backstage tropes of the rock-bio genre, and why
Hunger?should become the new handbook for every modern girl (and yes, boys, too) looking for the courage to pursue a life less ordinary.”
—Entertainment?Monthly?
“On the page, Brownstein comes across as funny, charming, self-deprecating and self-aware."?
—Williamette Week
"It’s Brownstein’s ability to recount her decorous punk life that blazes through. It’s as if she’s sitting across from the reader sharing a friendly cup of coffee, bringing you up to speed on her latest musical adventures."?
—Slug Magazine
“Is there anything [Brownstein] can’t do and do brilliantly?”?
—Cuepoint?
前言/序言
现代女性的觉醒与探索:一部关于自我发现、文化冲击与身份重塑的深度回忆录 《边缘的低语:在喧嚣中寻找自我的旅程》 主题提要: 本书以第一人称叙事,深入剖析了一位年轻女性在面对快速社会变迁、传统价值观瓦解与个人理想追求之间产生的复杂张力。故事围绕着主人公“艾莉丝”在跨越不同文化背景和职业领域时所经历的心灵成长、情感纠葛以及对“现代性”的深刻反思。它不仅仅是一部关于成长的记录,更是一幅描绘当代个体如何在碎片化的世界中,努力搭建起内在稳定结构的社会切片图景。全书洋溢着一种知识分子式的敏感和对人性的敏锐洞察力,探讨了孤独、归属感、以及如何在主流叙事之外建立个人意义的永恒命题。 第一部分:旧世界的余晖与裂隙 故事始于一个看似平静却暗流涌动的成长环境。艾莉丝在那个被既定规范所塑形的社区中长大,周围充斥着对“成功”和“体面生活”的集体想象。然而,早熟的她对这些标准始终保持着一种疏离感。作者细致地描绘了家庭教育对她性格基底的塑造:既有深沉的爱,也存在着无形的期待压力。 童年与青少年的“不合时宜”: 艾莉丝的童年时期充满了对书籍和知识的痴迷,这使她比同龄人更早地接触到外部世界的复杂性。她对周围环境的观察入微,笔触冷静而富有画面感。例如,她回忆起某个夏日午后,在尘封的阁楼里发现一本被遗忘的哲学书籍,那瞬间如同被一道闪电击中,预示了她未来对既有秩序的质疑。这种早期的智识萌动,让她在社交层面显得格格不入,被视为“想太多”的异类。 初尝边缘的滋味: 随着青春期的到来,艾莉丝开始尝试融入主流,却发现每一次的尝试都像穿着不合脚的鞋子。她对群体活动中的虚饰感到厌倦,对流行的符号符号缺乏共鸣。这种边缘感并非外力强加,而是由内在驱动的——她渴望真实、深刻的连接,而非浅尝辄止的社交游戏。书中用一系列生动的片段展现了她在舞会上、课堂讨论中,那种“身在其中,心在彼岸”的疏离感。这种早期体验,为她日后选择独立、非线性的生活路径奠定了心理基础。 第二部分:文化的交错与自我的重构 离开熟悉的地理和文化土壤,是艾莉丝人生中至关重要的一步。她选择了一段充满变数的异地求学或早期职业经历,这迫使她直面文化差异带来的冲击。 “陌生化”的视角: 艾莉丝抵达一个全新的城市或国度,周围的一切都带着陌生的光泽。她必须迅速掌握新的“游戏规则”,从语言的细微差别到不成文的社会习俗。作者对这种“陌生化”的描写极为细腻,不仅仅停留在表面的风土人情,更深入到当地人处理时间、情感和职业伦理的方式。她发现,过去引以为傲的某些特质,在新环境中可能毫无用处,甚至成为障碍。 职业选择的挣扎: 在新环境的早期,艾莉丝尝试过几份与她内在志趣并不完全契合的工作。她描述了在一家高速运转的创意机构中,如何体验到效率与人性的权衡。她必须学会在资本逻辑和个人道德之间找到一个动态平衡点。这些经历并非简单的挫折,而是她用来校准自己价值观的“试验场”。每一次辞职或转换跑道,都伴随着对“我究竟想为谁而活”的深刻叩问。她开始意识到,职业只是表达自我的一部分,而非全部。 情感的避风港与风暴: 在这个漂泊的阶段,艾莉丝也经历了深刻的情感联结。她与一位来自截然不同背景的人建立了一段关系。这段关系是她探索亲密关系和界限的缩影。作者并未将此描绘成一个完美的爱情故事,而是坦诚地展现了两个试图在不确定性中寻求稳定的人,如何因文化背景的差异、对未来的不同预期而产生摩擦。最终,她学会了爱人,也学会了在必要时放手,承认有些联结注定是阶段性的,而非永恒的锚点。 第三部分:内观的深化与意义的铸造 随着年龄的增长和经验的积累,艾莉丝从对外部世界的被动反应,转向了主动的内观和意义的建构。 艺术与创作的救赎: 写作(或其他艺术形式)成为艾莉丝处理复杂内在世界的关键媒介。她发现,只有通过创造性的输出,那些混乱的思绪才能被梳理和定型。书中详细阐述了创作过程中的挣扎——灵感的枯竭、自我怀疑的泥沼,以及最终突破限制时带来的纯粹喜悦。这种创作行为,不再是为了取悦他人,而是为了完成一场与自我的对话。 与“母亲”的议题: 随着视角的成熟,艾莉丝重新审视了她与上一代女性的关系。她不再是那个叛逆的女儿,而是带着理解和同情的目光去看待母亲们在特定历史和社会结构下所做的妥协与坚守。她开始明白,女性的身份从来不是单一的脚本,而是代际经验的复杂叠加。这种和解,并非全盘接受,而是理解了她们的局限,从而更清晰地划定了自己的边界。 “现代性”的去神圣化: 书的后半部分着重于对“现代性”标签的反思。艾莉丝不再盲目追求新潮或前卫,而是开始重新评估什么东西是真正具有持久价值的。她学会了从物质的堆砌中抽离出来,关注那些微小而稳定的日常仪式——清晨的一杯茶、一次长时间的步行、与少数密友之间的真诚交流。她认识到,真正的“现代”并非意味着对过去的彻底否定,而是在理解历史的基础上,有意识地选择自己的生活节奏和价值体系。 结语:在不确定的世界中安居 最终,艾莉丝并未找到一个宏大、一成不变的“答案”。她接受了生活本身就是一场持续的探索,而自我认同是一个动态的过程,需要不断地被审视和修正。本书的结尾,没有突兀的胜利宣告,而是流露出一种沉静的力量——一种在接纳了自己的矛盾性、承认了不完美之后所获得的内在安宁。她终于学会了在世界的喧嚣中,为自己建造一个坚固且舒适的“精神居所”。 本书的独特之处: 本书的叙事风格兼具文学的精炼和回忆录的坦诚,它避开了常见的励志套路,专注于探讨个体在现代性危机下的精神图景。作者运用了大量精准的意象和心理描写,使得读者能够深刻感受到主人公在身份认同、文化适应和情感探索过程中的微妙心路历程。它是一部献给所有在“应该”与“渴望”之间徘徊的现代人的深刻思考。